POETRY: FITTING FOR A HOT TEXAS EVE

Texas is hot. Everyone knows it gets hot in Texas every summer.  But, this year seems worse than I can remember…IT’S HOT!!!  I’m not joking when I say you CAN fry an egg on the pavement on days like this!  I’ll embellish on Texas heat another time.  With that being said, I decided my 2nd blog post would be one of my poems about staying indoors: A WRITER’S RATIONALE.  There will be 2 additional poems immediately following the poem: OVERWHELMED and SHELLS.  Thank you for reading.  I’d love your comments if you have time.  They will be added to my poetry list as well.
 ~ Enjoy and stay cool.




A WRITER’S RATIONALE
Didn’t go out today – didn’t leave my room, writing –
Home is where I feel most at ease.
Truth being, haven’t really gone outside –
For quite some time now, peaceful self-soothing –
Is what I prefer.
Constant in my head, analyzing, composing, editing –
Dreams, passionate anticipation of new assignments.
Content – thriving, despite lack of social interaction –
Humans are social creatures, yet habits challenge theory –
I am a challenge.
A writer socializes intimately with his designed characters
Companions gathering together, singing, drinking – fulfillment.
In truth, I sit with pen and paper, dismissing those who call –
Embrace solitude, content with little musings.
Hope I’m understood.
Writers, particularly poets are reputably hermits –
Seeking privacy, solitude, therefore…seclusion.
My excuse anyway, it’s a good one – so,
Excuse the mind-set, accept my world, my words.
This is my desire.
                                                                        
OVERWHELMED
The mess on my bed
Is the mess in my head…
            Chronic disarray
Dreadful habits unshed
Accumulating things unsaid, unread…
            Swirling melee
Purge, to cleanse my purpose said
Out loud and in my head…
            Again, I’ll disobey
                              
  SHELLS
We are the smallest
Shells not found until
Hardened over grit
Sculpted in truth
As grains of sand
Engrave the soul
Secret pearl masks
Hidden tales, love
Pieces left behind
Magnificent journey
Unique metamorphosis
Memories culled
Re-arranged, displaced
Longing for the shore                                        

                        

Author: Mary

ABOUT MARY ~ I am a "late-blooming" writer from Texas who specializes in creative writing/poetry. I have a background in music, the performing arts, and enjoyed 14 years in sales/marketing & as a special events planner in the private club industry. I am a 1990 graduate from The University of North Texas who started off as a music major (voice), but I wasn't "feeling" it was the right fit. So, I took a break, changed directions & graduated with a B.S. in Hotel/Restaurant Management. I was an athletic, healthy young woman who also displayed an unfortunate pattern in the men I chose in life (life lessons indeed!). After a brief marriage in the early 1990's, I decided to focus on my career, yet 5 years later I met hubby #2. So, with more maturity & high hopes for success, I married again & became a full time stepmother of two. Along with several rewarding events & fond memories came more challenges, yet I maintained a fun, successful career in the food and beverage industry until 2001. Life...as I knew it changed when I received the diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis (MS). Looking back, I must have been in denial or a state of confused shock as to how dramatically my life would actually change. I attempted to work a few more years after diagnosis, but I was becoming more unpredictable, forgetful, & lost - my job performance was never quite right anymore. You see, this disease affects everyone different. I went through relapses & other issues, but my mobility was intact - then. Unless you REALLY know me, I was then & continue to be labeled an "invisible symptom" case. My MS enjoys messing with my brain, & many other body functions. Anxiety, mood changes, nerve pain, heat & fatigue are debilitating - quite an uphill battle especially when stress is involved. A few more "in denial" years went by & I dealt with this vile invasion of my "internal room-mate". My husband couldn't understand, nor could he handle my ever increasing health issues - he hated every part of it (I don't really blame him for that). But, he avoided being around me when I was suffering - he {didn't sign on for this & I sure didn't look sick}. He was embarrassed as to how my MS affected his lifestyle. So, divorce and other challenges came into play in 2009. Those were painful, rough days. I know now I was suffering from a nervous breakdown. Not yet had I thought to seek the help of a professional therapist to help me cope or to help purge the noisy voices & chaos inside my head, so I began to purge through writing. WRITING saved me! I attempted to compose little songs & dove into playing piano again - I even taught myself a little acoustic guitar & it felt good...soothing. I had found a form of therapy which enabled me to breathe again; a healing tool that didn't require a prescription. This journey to reinvent myself actually seemed plausible via my artsy background & new creative outlets. I've become a student again & the benefits of turning off our "auto pilot switch" & instead focusing on learning new, foreign things & activities is priceless. This "rewiring" of the brain is called Neuroplasticity. Writing (primarily poetry) & music has filled me with a POWERFUL passion, purpose, & endless possibility. This may sound odd, but I'm grateful for the tough times! There's this gift called "resilience" - my MS & other life struggles have gifted this to me. A gift which forced me to find "me" & to focus on the important things in life...to laugh, live selflessly with compassion & passion. Find me on: 🔸Twitter: @pettigrew66, @MSpals, @MSpalsPoets 🔸Facebook: MaryPettigrew48 🔸LinkedIn: http://linkedin.com/in/mary-pettigrew-1b582330 🔸Instagram: 🔸https://www.mspals.org Acknowledgments and Press ~ • Two of my early poems were published in the U.K. in book compilations of poetry: ~The Summer of Sport: Forward Poetry 2012 ~ Poetry Rivals Collection 2013 • Featured in 2 articles in The National Multiple Sclerosis Society's 'Momentum Magazine' ~ 2013 = art therapy & MS ~ 2015 = connecting via social media • My work has been featured/published in various book compilations, blogs, websites, as well as other multimedia platforms including: www.pajamadaze.com www.disabled-world.com www.HealthCentral.com www.MyCounterpane.com www.MS&MeRadio/TBI Network Something On Our Minds (SOOM): funds The Accelerated Cure Project "Twitter Q&A" - A Writers Experience (details forthcoming) • Creator & Co-founder of MSpals: a global organization (2014)

4 thoughts on “POETRY: FITTING FOR A HOT TEXAS EVE”

  1. Your A Writer's Rationale is incredibly spot on. Candid. I like it. I think that writers are maybe too good at being observers. We observe. We absorb. We write. But we are at our most comfortable place when we are solitary, removed from interaction, and busy watching.

    I think that might be one of the things that makes online interaction so perfect for writers. 🙂

    Overwhelmed–I can relate. 🙂 I see it. I know it. I ignore it. I deny it. 🙂

    Shells–very nice. One thing leads to the next… 🙂

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  2. Thanks for posting these poems. I don't usually read poetry but I found these texts interesting and enjoyable. They are very different from each other! I hope you post more. Also, I liked the sketches very much. Keep it up!

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  3. Thanks, Teresa!
    It seems you and I are on the same wavelength re: my words & their meaning. People interpret poetry differently & in their own way – how it relates to them. That's what I love most about poetry…there's no right or wrong “definition” of what the writer writes.

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