PTSD

7c37e-heart
Like clockwork, panic wakes me with a start –
My body, mind and soul at war again
Spanning decades, this solo battle leaves me
Broken, breathless –
Exhausted, sweat drenched nightmares
Find me in the darkened haze – I pause
Until I’m urged to get out of bed –
Wading through the deep abyss of sleep deprivation,
I splash cold water on my face – some relief.
Looking up, into the mirror, scars external –
Scars – healed wounds, like “tattooed tales”
But my eyes…whose eyes are these?
They’re silently screaming, revealing
A hidden myriad, stories blocked, painful years lost –
Invisible and overlooked by society, yet now I see
The toxic damage internal
No one…not even myself truly looked inside –
In my eyes you’ll see my pain,
I’m still bleeding…and quickly
Running out of gauze.

 

~ by Mary Pettigrew (2015)

CrazyChronicLife

A chronic illness life is a crazy life. We can handle it together- with humor, kindness, and a few meltdowns along the way. Peace, love, and health.

The Amazing Adventures of Stick Girl

Join me as I adapt to living with a disability. I will update you on my health, review things I do, see and visit all with a positive spin.

The Voice of Peace Canada

Be the peace you are looking for

DARK ANKI

Travel through my readings

Reality Recappers

Here to recap all the crap

My Life in Pieces

A history of my journey through life.

Damaged Goods

The unfiltered musings of a youth worker, MS warrior, wanna-be writer and chronically misunderstood misfit

A 30 Minute Life

Living with chronic illness - Multiple Sclerosis & Pain

MS and Ultra-Cycling

Father,Grandfather and Ultra-cyclist with MS

Diabetes Blog - Happy-Medium.net

Searching for the right balance between the highs and lows of diabetes

Rising Above rheumatoid arthritis

A Collection of Poetry, Essays & Articles ~ by Mary Pettigrew

Carnival of MS Bloggers

A Collection of Poetry, Essays & Articles ~ by Mary Pettigrew

budding communications

specialist writing services

IndieWire

The Voice of Creative Independence

Bean's MS Blog

A Collection of Poetry, Essays & Articles ~ by Mary Pettigrew

Mango Health

A Collection of Poetry, Essays & Articles ~ by Mary Pettigrew

My New Normals

Living With Multiple Sclerosis

Hellomrsmartypants's Blog

Just another WordPress.com weblog

Barefoot Heathen

trivial nonsense from a random existence

%d bloggers like this: