Let’s discuss another aspect of fatigue which involves feelings of disappointment & GUILT! Sigh…
Too often I find myself canceling plans. I’m often unable to participate in, or do simple things I intend because fatigue takes over. BOOM! Out of nowhere it appears – There are no excuses, this can’t be helped, yet attempts to rest & recouperate falter as the end result & mindset becomes one of GUILT!
I’m sure I’m not alone in this emotional feeling which results from chronic illness induced fatigue. GUILT!
Why can’t we – why don’t we let go of this waste of emotional energy? How can we let go of this self induced beating? When will we let go of this cycle and realize it’s ok? Sure, it’s a disappointment & often an inconvenient schedule change for all parties involved, but we must remember…it’s ok. When we become “predictably unpredictable” regarding plans with friends & family, remember, it’s ok…they still love us! We have a disease that uses & emphasizes fatigue as it’s invisible bully when we are most vulnerable. Our reality becomes skewed as we unwillingly play the game of “self doubt” & GUILT!
Somebody, please call forfeit!
–Mary Pettigrew 7/2016